notes from the morning after the bad blog

Usually when I have a couple of drinks I don't turn into a whiny, depressed person. I'm going to blame my complete mental exhuastion for that happening yesterday. That and a couple of glasses of wine. It's strange reading it over again though - i've felt that way for a long time and never wanted to write it because I was worried other people would either think me juvenile or depressed. Since I generally like to consider myself of sound mental and emotional health - I was tempted to take the blog off and leave it in "drafts" where some of the other things I've written but couldn't bring myself to publish are hiding...
but i've decided to leave it there - it's how I feel sometimes and i can't make apologies for feelings that I don't want to be having in the first place.
Tonight our section is going out for the last drinking / dinner night. Jeremy and I are both going, and I know we'll have a great time - i've decided to avoid the computer when i come home - lest I be tempted to write about some other topic best kept in my brain...